So... I'm convinced that yesterday's 30 days of truth was preparing me for today.
God has a funny way of doing that for us sometimes.
You see, B.P. texted me today.
(He has been going through a self-seeking spiritual journey as of late.)
He asked me if he could tell me something very important... he then went on to tell me that because of how deeply hurt he was in his marriage, how he was no good to anyone because, as of right now, he was not in a good place himself, and because of this he couldn't continue on with this "relationship" we have where he felt like he was sending me mixed messages.
...and then he released me.
He told me that he would no longer be contacting me.
Don't get me wrong... I'm upset.
I don't like to lose friends... especially when I don't understand all the reasoning behind it.
...But in the same sense, he didn't leave me to wonder why he fell off the face of the earth.
I think it was karma that it happened on the day after my post yesterday... because B.P. doesn't know my blog address... and it made me realize, I am ready to release him as well.
“Sincere forgiveness isn't colored with expectations that the other person apologize or change. Don't worry whether or not they finally understand you. Love them and release them. Life feeds back truth to people in its own way and time.” ~Sara Paddison
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