30 Days of Truth: Day Eight: Worthless

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

Ha! This one is easy.
Which one of the two men I have had in my life do you want me to focus on?

I seriously think I could write a book about both.
Warning women far and near what to watch out for. But what good will it do?
I know when I was in the midst of it, no one could have told me to look around and to open my eyes.
I know... because people did.
My instincts did.
But instead, I turned a blind eye because no one that loves me would ever do that to me.

Yeah, right.
Yes... That is called cynicism.

I used to never be cynical.
I used to live in this magical bubble fairy world where everything was grand and everything worked out for the best.
Not anymore.
No.
Because of these two men... men that I loved more than they loved me(yes, I can admit that now), I have become cynical.
I'm now not sure true lifelong love exists.
I'm now not sure someone will stick with me for me because if a better piece of ass comes along I might as well just say my farewells.

Now... when a guy seems too interested, I pull away because I don't want to get sucked in... sucked into a relationship to where I end up caring more than he does and he decides to treat me like last week's garbage. I never want to feel like this again! I never want to have such inner turmoil that I don't know when someone is doing me wrong.

"Pure love and suspicion cannot dwell together: at the door where the latter enters, the former makes its exit." ~ Alexandre Dumas

More to come...
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.