Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
This is another hard one for me.
I believe everyone comes into your life for a reason.
...Whether it is to help you get over a tough time, make you smile, or teach you are much needed lesson.
I don't like to let go of people.
It seems like a slamming door, not just closure.
But the person I should release back into this world is B.P.
I smile anytime I hear from him.
He makes me laugh.
He always knows just the right thing to say.
...but I know that he and I are just ... friends.
I had wanted more between us when first met and went on a few dates.
I don't think he knew what he wanted.
I was the first person he dated after his divorce.
I think, he (like me) is fearful of being hurt again.
So, instead, we enjoy communicating and flirting.
But I need to let go the thought of him ...
because with him out there
I always think that there might, one day, be a possibility
...but in my heart of hearts, I know that I am holding on for fear of losing again ...even if it is just his friendship.
More to come...
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
This Is Not Okay
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