I've been enjoying the 30 days of truth, but truth be told, it has really censored what I share about what doing and feeling in my current every day life.
My twists and turns continue.
My male interaction is just that... interaction - virtual interaction.
I'm chatting and texting and IM'ing.
And despite the fact that I LOVE to banter with a witty guy... face to face interaction is what I truly desire.
I would much rather hear his inflection and his laugh than to read LOL or LMAO.
I went a few weeks where I was "speed dating" (according to my friend, Laura).
I would "meet" a guy online, chat it up, go on a date, not be impressed, and then start the whole process ALL over again.
So, here I am. I guess, I am back at the "chat it up" stage.
Trust me. I'm really good at the "chat it up" stage.
But it's not where I want to be.
Also, I had a friend tell me today that I needed to watch my interaction with men that were not single. It caught me off guard. I have been cheated on. The last thing in the world I would ever do is be involved in a relationship where I helped someone else cheat on their partner! But it made me think... are my guy friends "thinking" of cheating when they talk to me? I mean, they are married and I am friends with their wives, and once every couple of months they call me to check up on me and then end up using me as a sounding board. I haven't ever thought of it as strange or indecent. We talk about life and work and family and kids. But is it wrong that I, a female, am being called by male friends just to talk?
Truth be told, I like it. I like that I have friends out in this world (be them male or female) that care enough about me to actually pick up the phone and call me to see how I am doing. Does that make them attracted to me where I should worry about whether or not I'm gonna ruin a marriage?
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