When reality slaps you in the face

I was driving down the road with Ty in my new car and the gas light came on.
I casually mentioned that I would need to stop soon for gas.
His response?? "Let's see how far we can make it before it runs out."

A memory hit me so hard, I wasn't sure I could respond.
I shook my head no and whispered, "Been there, done that."

Ty (of course, not knowing) laughs and says, "So? who hasn't ran out of gas before?"

So I got to relive the time that I was stranded an hour from home and even though I was headed to see Spencer, he wouldn't come rescue me.

You see... I am a resourceful gal.  I am not beyond hiking on foot.  But I was an hour from home... on a road that didn't show a town for miles on my GPS... and it was snowing.
My GPS did show a gas station a mile away... but how was I to know if it was actually STILL there OR open.
I tried calling TripleA but they didn't have anyone in the area that serviced on the weekends.
Spencer told me that he needed to take a nap and he definitely  didn't need to be on the road an extra 2 hours to come save me when he had 6 hours of driving ahead of him.

Thankfully my brother, Tim, who was in town for Christmas came and brought me gas.

Ty just stared at me and said, "Are you serious? Someone wouldn't come help you?"

And that's when it hit me... that I had no self-worth in that relationship with Spencer.  I would never allow Ty to treat me that way (not that he would), but to have someone not help you and then to continue on to go and visit them like nothing was wrong.

It made me fight back the tears and thank God now value myself so much more and expect it from the man in my life as well.

If you truly want honesty, don't ask questions you don't really want the answer to

I despise telemarketers.
I am on the no call list, but I still get the occasional call.

Today was one of those days.
I saw it on my caller ID, but I decided that I would tell whomever was calling to take me off their list.

It was from XM radio.
I had their service... now let me tell you up front I loved my XM because my part of the country is about 6 months behind the rest of the country when it comes to music.  I would hear a song on XM and be tired of it before it even breached my local radio station. (and then would laugh when my local radio station would say "Here's a new release from so-and-so")

My problem with XM was their service... not the one provided to me, but the people I dealt with. I was told I would get a year's free worth of service. I got 3 months. When I decided to pay for an additional 6 months, I gave my credit card info that day. Nine months later, I received a call from a collection agency for said bill.

For someone who always pays their bills on time, I was pissed!!!

So... today... when the woman on the other line said, "I'm from XM and just so you know this call is being recorded for quality assurance purposes.  Can you tell me why  you left our service?" I let know exactly why.

Strange, but she didn't try to stay on the line with me OR try to get me to re-join their service.
Betcha I don't get any more calls from them.... and I'm okay with that.

Friday Confessional~I'm a mess

I confess...
being sick over my spring break sucked.  But having an actual reason to do nothing but sleep for 4 straight days, was wonderful!!

I confess...
that even though it is flattering that a 23 year old thinks I'm hotter than most of the 20 yr olds around him... it pisses me off when he thinks he can treat me like the 20 yr girls.  I am a woman!!! How about a little respect??  So whatever the girls your age are willing to text you... You won't be getting those things from me!

I confess...
that I am actually glad I went through HS with the lack of "knowledge".  My innocence saved me from a LOT of heartache... and STD's.

I confess...
that even though I know how to do my job and teach on my own... I have always had a fellow teacher who supports me... who reminds me of what I'm supposed to be doing when my mind has drawn a blank. 

I confess...
that I'm scared who that person will be next year (if I even have one) because my bestie has taken a 2nd grade position. *sigh*

I confess...
that I tend to volunteer my time... and then regret the time lost from volunteering... yet I love the appreciation that comes from it.

I confess...
that I haven't go out on a date in the month of March... so I said that is what I was giving up for Lent (LOL)... and then I got asked out today.

I confess...
that I only broke my Lenten promise because the guy wants to take me to see an Elton John concert.  That's a valid reason, right?

Tag. You're it!

I went on a date on Friday.

We went and played putt putt and laser tag.

Now I have never played laser tag before...

...and let me just tell you, I am awwwesoooome!

Yeah... I smoked him.

I scored 5676 points to his 3763 points.

I know. I know.

You're supposed to let the guy win to boost his ego.

Well, that isn't me.

I grew up with 3 brothers.

I am a very competitive person.

I like to win!!

I mean... we played putt putt and he won in that.

I couldn't let him have ALL the victories. Right?

I've decided that whoever I end up with is gonna have to be okay with a little healthy competition.

... that, and he is gonna have to know to let me win sometimes if I'm not coming out and beating him already.

Just sayin'.