My teaching partner in crime aka SD came over into my room today.
I don't even know now what she came over for... but us popping into each other's room to chat isn't uncommon... and you never know what the topic will be.
Today, we began talking about how unfortunate things propel life in different directions.
She told me how her mom dying of cancer fast forwarded her wedding.
I told her that my mom dying in a car wreck kept R. from breaking up with me and instead we eventually got married.
Then she paused and looked and me and said, "Do you miss her?"
Overwhelming tears filled inside me.
I nodded... It's all I could do.
She responded with, "I know... Every day. Every. Single. Day. Being a mom to my kids without her there..."
That was it. I lost it.
She said exactly how I felt.
Most days I keep it buried within me... it's safest there...Where no one else can see the pain.
But I miss my mom SO, SO VERY MUCH...
Every. Single. Day.
Winter is coming and I feel it in my bones.
4 days ago