Wednesday, March 3, 2010

how I can sleep at night

I had VERY vivid dreams last night....dreams that people were trying to break into my house.
They weren't just trying to break down my doors either... no... they were men parachuting in from Army helicopters. When I tried to call 911, my fingers couldn't get the numbers right on my cell phone and I panicked. When I reached my home phone, it was disconnected. I tried to turn on the lights to see what was wrong and that is when I realized I had no power. I ran back to my bedroom all along trying to call for help. As I reached for my doorknob to lock my bedroom door, I panicked...there wasn't a door knob to lock. A bald man with a squished up face forced open the door. About the time he started to speak, I woke up.


I hate having dreams like that when I am by myself. When my boys are here, they give me a sense of security. Even though I am the one protecting them, they give me a mental security... you know the "Momma Bulldog" mentality ~where I wouldn't allow anything to happen to my babies, so I know nothing is going to happen to me.

But when I am by myself, I tend to lose that Momma Bulldog. I lay awake listening... making sure there really isn't anything making noises in my house.

That is why I tend to look up what my dreams mean...to know what lies beneath allows me to distract myself long enough to fall back asleep.

Last night's dream meant that I was bailing out of a situation (parachute) that I had focused ambitions on (helicopter). I felt like I was losing a grip (fingers) on a connection I had with a relationship (telephone) and, in return, felt a lack of control (panic). I had a lack of insight or perspective (loss of electricity) of issues that I needed to get a handle on (door knobs) and I have feelings of anger that need to be faced head on (forced).

(If you know anything about what is going on with me right now...you know my dream was dead on! If you don't know what's going on with me...read back a few posts.)

Having this insight is what allows me to fall back asleep when I'm alone ...and the Momma bulldog is nowhere to be found.

7 comments:

  1. People scaling into my house and disconnected phones have laced my stress dreams since I was a kid.

    I hate the feeling that hits me upon waking up after the initial feeling of relief passes.

    I never thought to look them up before, though. Good idea!

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  2. I dreamt I was walking up my childhood street in nothing but a purple bathrobe. (Lack of clothes in a dream has never bothered my dream self) But then I ended up at an arena where I was wearing a purple cloak and supposed to be auctioning junk - in the rain. I pulled out a flip flop in the shape of a lily pad, prepared to extoll its virtues as an umbrella!

    I love that you look up the meanings. I use The Dream Book by Betty Bethards.

    Dropping by from SITS!

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  3. I know what you mean...I hate waking up by myself with dreams like that. I guess I should start interpreting my dreams, too. :)

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  4. I have vivid dreams. I hate that.
    Stopping by from SITS to say Hi!
    I am adding you so I can come back & read more!
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  5. Holy BALLS! Army men parachuting on your house? If I had that dream I would have been cowering in a corner in my basement.

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  6. I was taking a shower this morning and I heard a noise - which made me continue peeking out of the shower curtain ever 30 seconds to verify there was not an intruder in the bathroom - hang in there!

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  7. Eep! Why, oh why, did I come to your blog and read that post right before bed? I am locking my bedroom door tonight, even though my Sexy Nerd will think I've lost my mind! :p

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