I went on a couple of dates with a guy, B, back in April and then he told me he was going to be honest with me... he wasn't ready. I was the first person he had dated since his divorce and he just wasn't ready. I respected his choice...
He and I have remained friends... I mean, I guess you could call it that. We text each other when we have something humorous to say... or when we are passing through each other's town. He has my sense of humor and so we never are lacking for things to say.
I told him about my new guy. I didn't know how he would take it. I mean, the reason we met was to date... and even though I enjoyed my time with him, I didn't/don't plan to sit around and wait until he is "ready."
He told me my new guy doesn't know me like he knows me.
So (jokingly) I asked him, "What do you know about me??"
The things he typed made me cry.
He was dead on.
They weren't surfacy things either. They were things that told me he has been paying attention in the 3 months that we have known each other.
Then he told me that I deserved more and that when the time is right, that person will be there.
What does that mean????
My friend, Laura, told me he is doing this because he has been keeping me on "the back burner" for when he is ready... and he doesn't want me to commit to someone else, so he is making his presence fully known now.
What I know... is that B's texts made me stop and analyze what I truly want out of the guy that I date and have a relationship with. The things he said that caused me to cry are the fears that I am holding onto and aren't allowing me to push forward.
So I wrote them all down.
I plan to sit down and discuss them with the new guy...
It will be scary...
... but I have decided that I might want to move forward with him... and if that is the case, then I must lay it all out on the table.
Surfing Sunday 07.15
5 days ago