Colby, my oldest, is JUST like me.
Normally I say that beaming ear to ear.
He has my caring heart and wonderfully wholesome soul that looks for the good in everyone...
...But he also got the desire to please EVERYONE, even when it comes down to the stress inducing detriment of himself.
And I get it. I was the "perfect teenager" because I didn't want to disappoint my mom. I stayed on the straight and narrow, so I would never be thought of in an ill manner way by ANYONE. I lived a safe (and honestly, boring) life... But it was "perfect", and I was happy because I thought everyone around me was happy too.
It wasn't until my ex, R. cheated, did my view change... because I HAD stayed on the straight and narrow and still my car was pushed off the road and, in turn, I wasn't happy and I finally had to stand up for myself and for my happiness.
I would say, I even went a little rouge. I did any little whim of things that made me happy. I didn't worry about what other people thought and I grew from it...
But see, I don't want Colby to have to go through something like that to find his voice. He worries about anything and everything (like I do) and currently he cries to relieve his stress. This infuriates his dad. He dad doesn't believe that a teenage boy should cry like that. But I get it. My thoughts consume me some days... and on those days, I don't sleep. Thankfully, I have a husband now that gets it and helps to calm those thoughts and lets me talk it out... which in turn helps me sleep.
It is also why I started to blog. I needed to get the thoughts out.. and after I mentally "vomited" all over the page of the computer screen, I felt better.
Colby isn't like me when it comes to writing. Words don't pour out of him. But I need to find something... Something to help him feel less stressed... Something other than crying... Because,even though I don't care if he cries, his dad does... Which causes MORE stress because of his dad's reaction to the crying... and then Colby is stressed out more and then I hear about it from my ex which stresses me out and then every body is stressed...
So... Any suggestions for relieving stress would be appreciated.
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