When I was a kid and my mom had headed back to college to finish her degree, she seemed to always be tired. She would pull up to a stop light, tell us to wake her when the light changed to green, lay back and close her eyes. Within seconds, she would be breathing loudly. I wondered how she could be to sleep so quickly...
When I was hitting my growth spurts in high school and would come home from school, collapse on the couch, sleep for a few hours, eat and go back to sleep... I thought I was tired.
When I was in college and stayed up half the night because I had procrastinated TOO long and I refused to turn my paper in late and I knew I HAD to make that 8 am class because I couldn't risk my scholarship... I thought I was tired.
When I had newborns and I was up half the night with midnight, and 2am, and 4 am, and 6 am nursing sessions... I thought I was tired.
But this semester - this semester is about to do me in...
I realize that I am teaching and working on a thesis and trying to be the best mom and girlfriend out there and (occasionally) cake decorating... BUT this kind of tired ... this kind of tired makes me want to sleep at stop lights.
Winter is coming and I feel it in my bones.
5 days ago