I used to cherish these evenings by myself.
They helped me refocus and get back centered with the world.
However, lately... they just feel lonely.
Today is Mother's Day.
I had the boys most of the day.
In fact, I had them all weekend until this evening.
Todd took us to the Lake and spoiled us with great food and friends.
We were engulfed in fun Friday and Saturday.
So, today, we just relaxed and caught up.
But as I dropped them off with R., it took all of me to drive back home...
...because I knew the house would be empty.
... and somehow, being alone doesn't refocus me any more...
It makes me realize how short my time is with my boys and I now feel every second I am not with them is a second I am missing out on.